*ding*

We all want to do it. Whether it's to fix something that was broken or to relive something that was amazing, we all want to go back.

This was my recent big lesson. Lately all I've seen was hate, unhappiness and sorrow try to penatrate my life. I could only focus on that, having a full scatoma on the lesson that was trying to be known.

It wasn't my father dying, it wasn't feeling abandoned by my family. It wasn't being hurt by a friend. It wasn't money, economy, or my getting deathly ill. It was a message. (smacks forhead)

You can't go back. You can't rekindle lost friendships, you can't get one last chance to ask why. You can't expect people to change because you have. It's over.
There's no going back. You have to just take access of everything now, then step forward.

This is my life. Now. Right the fuck now, I have to live.

I am never going to get those answers, or resolutions that I pyne for daily.
I am leaving it all behind.
If something comes to find me in my future I will deal with it then.

Now, I am happy. I do not feel sorrow, or longing, or lonely. Now I feel great. I'll just hang onto that.